Jordan, I've been thinking about you so much lately. I just am having the hardest time getting past this tragedy that has so brutely devasted our family.So many reminders of you , of what you whould be doing now, of what you missed, your graduation, just everything. I wear your tee shirts to bed and just hold on to them and wish I was holding you. I'm on antidepressants which are helping me to be able to talk about you without breaking down every time even though I still have my moments of shear pain, like broken shards of glass just piercing my heart. It is just so difficult to live without you in our lives. I will forever remember every moment I spent with you. God, how much I love you. It's not fair, God took you from us WAY to soon. You still had so much to offer this world. It was a much better place with you in it. When you can, will you please try to come to me in my dreams. I just need to see your face and hear you voice. That would be so comforting for me. I deceided on what my tatto I'm getting is. I designed it myself. It's gong to have your name, then wings on either side, above that it will say"In loving memory, then below under one wing will be your birth year and on the other side will be your angel year.I will carry you forever. It's my tribute to you. I'm sure you would have loved it. Well baby, it's about one-thirty in the morning so I'm going to say goodnight for now. I miss you and love you so much it hurts. Just know not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I will write again soon, and as soon as I can I will add more pics to your site. Love you baby. Aunt Dee
Jordan, So many people are hurting without you here. Your presence is desperatly missed. Lindsey thinks you may have given her a sign. I hope so. We would all like a sign from you. Maybe that's not to be, just wishful thinking. I still can't get over the fact that God took you from us. I keep asking why, and of course there is no answer. I'm going to go to chuch, to hopefully help me understand, and to help be better deal with the loss of you. Your Mom is so mad at you right now. Mad at the decision you made to drink and drive. Mad at the fact that you left her to deal with all this pain. I sometimes find myself mad at you as well. Although I know you did not intend for this to happen, but knowing you knew better and you still made that fatal decision. Being mad is not going to bring you back, being sad is not going to bring you back. We have to learn to go on living without you. Not an easy task. So many broken hearts you left behind. I just miss you so much, miss talking to you, hugging you, loving you. Losing you has made me so afraid of losing anyone else. I don't think I could handle losing someone else. You just never know what the future holds. Just know that I think of you always and miss you with everything I have. I love you so much and my heart aches for you. Just watch over us and be happy and at peace wherever you are. That's all I want for you. Peace and happines to you always. Love Aunt Dee
Just wanting to talk to you today. / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee ) Jordan, I've been thinking of you so much lately. I keep reliving the accident and finding out about it over and over. God, what a painful shock that moment was. It just devasted everyone. I think you would have loved your memorial service. It was standing room only. They had to open up another room just so people could hear the service over the intercom. I read a prayer for you. I managed to get thru it. I just kept thinking I'm doing this for Jordan. Sean read a poem he wrote and it was a wonderful tribute to your friendship. He really misses you. Your friends presented your Mom and Bill and Grant with a skateboard signed by all your friends. That brought tears to many eyes. It was a beautiful service of which you were so deserving.It's been seven months today and feels like it was just yesterday. Some days are harder than others, such as holidays and just the thought of you not being with us this summer at the lake, etc. I'm trying really hard to live my life knowing you won't be with me physically, but it's just so difficult. I really hope that there is a Heaven, an afterlife, where you are waiting for us to join you, where you are watching over us and can see how very much you are loved and missed. You were really a special young man and I feel very privleged to have had you as my nephew for the 17 yrs. you were with us. You always made me feel special. I knew without a doubt that you truly loved me, know matter what. That's a rare thing to have, and I consider myself so lucky to have been a part of your life. When we meet again (hopefully) I am not going to let you go. I look forward to a big hug and to look into that beautiful face with your wonderful smile and feel at peace again. Know that until that time comes I will think of you every day and NEVER stop missing you. I love you so much and just feel the need to let you know as often as possible. My heart is just full of love for you along with the sadness of your absence. So much reminds me of you and I welcome that as I never for a moment want to not think of you and the special bond we had. How lucky I was. I love you baby, forever and always, every second of every day. I miss you so. Love Aunt Dee
Everything reminds me of you / Aunt Dee (Aunt) Jordan, How I miss you. You will never know. No one will ever understand the pain this has brought to ME. I think of you constantly, every waking moment something reminds me of you. Someone skateboarding really sets me off. Just seeing a young man around your age hits my gut. Sometimes I can talk about you and I'm fine, or as fine as I can be. Other times I can't even think about you without losing it. We went to the horse races Friday night and it brought back memories. Good ones, but I still could not get away from the thought of you for only a moment. Your friends just went on spring break and all I could think of was you would have been with them, you should have been with them. I keep thinking this summer at the lake will be hard without you there, kneeboarding or tubing. Just laughing and having a great time, having the best wipeouts! We're going on vacation to the beach and it makes me think of how much you loved the beach and of how much fun you would of had if you could have gone. You and Uncle Joe and the boys. Uncle Joe doesn't talk about you much. Very little in fact. I know it's because he hurts so and wants to just try and remember all the good times. All he really says is that he lost his best friend in the world. That breaks my heart, he loves you so, he felt like you we're his son and he doesn't have that anymore. Stacy misses you more than I knew. She really felt like you were her little brother and she just misses talking to you about everything, life, etc. Giving you advice. Kylie knows you are in heaven, an angel now to watch over her. She always asks about you. Mostly about you leaving us. She say's you are taking care of Jake, our cat. Do that for her ok? Take care of Jake. Our family is shattered. Just so lost and sad. Grieving in different ways, but just so heartbroken. I don't think any of us really know what to do, how to act when we are together. Do we hold everything in so as not to upset anyone, or can we cry and talk about you and let it out? Your Mom has been really strong but I think it is finally catching up with her. The loss of you is finally sinking in. She had two sons and now there is one. I tell her she will always have two sons, one in heaven and one here on earth. She works with a bunch of high school students and I don't think that is very good for her. Hopefully she can find something else, so as not to be reminded evry second of the day. I know life shall go on, but it's just so very hard to realize that you won't be a part of it. Just in our memories of you. You will never be forgotten and you will be loved forever by all you touched.We miss you and wish you were with us. Love you so much! Aunt Dee
Just so Sad / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee ) Jordan, Easter was a VERY difficult day without u as all days are, but this day the pain was overwhelming. I lost it terribly at the nursing home with the Ladds. It was brought up about how you and Laura and Chelsea where all just one month and one week away from each other in age, about them turning 18 and I just lost it. I was ok up until that point and then I had to leave the room for several hrs it seemed to compose myself as I cried like I never knew I could cry. That night I wore one of your tshirts to bed and held it crying wishing it was you, begging God to bring you back. I certainly am not dealing with this well at all!! Why did you have to go? I will never be able to ask that question enough! Why our family? Why does any family have to lose a child. The pain is just so unbearable. I'm not afraid to die anymore. I almost welcome it. So I can be with you. Yes there are moments of laughter, but mostly for me just sadness, grief, despair and a depression so deep I feel like I' m in the depths of hell. I am getting help, to try and deal, but so far not working. I know it takes time, but I think of you every moment and my heart just aches and my mind just can't stop thinking of you. I will never accept that you are gone from us. It just can't be true.Our family is shattered. We need you with us. Just as we were starting to become a family again you left us. How could you do that? I just have so many unanswered questions about that night and I do not think I will rest until I have the answers I so despertly want and need. I just feel the need to hold you so strongly right now. Just need one of your big tight hugs!! I NEED that!! Why did God take our baby? Why? All I want to do is just stay in bed and sleep away time, so I don't have to think about you. I just miss you and love you so much. If you are up there please help me to deal with this. Come to me and give me a sign that you are ok. PLEASE!! Life will never be the same without you. I love you so much and wish you were home where you belong. I know that's not to be, but still can't help wishing for that. Please try and help us thru this horrible time of pain and sadness. We will always need our Jordan. I love you so. Aunt Dee
We are all Heartbroken without you here / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee ) Jordan, I can't stop thinking of you. There is a part of you with me in some way every second of every day. I never thought something like this would happen to our family, as I'm sure most families don't. Your birthday was last week and it was a tough week and a tougher day, however you were thought about by everyone who ever knew you and loved you. Quite a few tears were shed that day. Our baby was to be 18 yet it wasn't to be. A Man finally, but you would have ALWAYS been my baby. Your friends had a party in your honor. They really loved you. I hope you know how VERY much you were loved. Your Mom tried to put on a brave face that day, but she had a breakdown, just missing you and wondering why it had to be you. She is just hurting so much. I really believe Jordan, that you were the anchor in our family, the one that held us together, thru your kindness and your love. Even though you were a little shit at times I think that the commonality of the Love that we all shared for you kept us together. You were an example. One that we should all learn something from and be better people because of it. I have tried so hard to not let this continue to hold me back from life, but I just can't let go, and so God help me I don't know why. You really took a large chunk of my heart with you when you left. I just loved being with you. You always made me so happy when you were around execpt on a few occasions that I remember well. I always called you, Uncle Joe and Cousin Robbie "My Boys." And now there are two. But now you are my "Angel Baby" and I just hope that you are feeling the love and sadness and all the emotions you left behind. You will never be forgotten as the memories of you will be passed down from generation to generation so all those that come after you will have the pleasure of knowing something about our wonderful Jordan. I must go for now, but will write later and I love you for all time. Aunt Dee
Well happy b-day. Hope god gives you a great one and hope he lets u send a sign down on us to let us know ur there. Its already hard to realize that your gone. Today makes it harder cause its your b-day and you cant be here with your frinds and family to celabrate it.Cant beleave you would of been 18. you would of been old enough to buy cigs and lottery tickets. Not that cigs and lottery tickets matter. I cant think of much to say cause in my heart your not gone. I just think your on a long journey or something. Well I cant make it up to your tree to say a prayer or light a candle but i'll do something here. I cant imagain what everyone is going through today but i'll send some prayers out to them. Not one day goes by that i don't think of you. Well I hate to go but I got to take care of Brayden he's gotton so big. He would of loved to have met you but i promise that when he gets older i will tell him about you. So happy b-day cant wait to see you. Rest in peace friends heather and brayden chris and lindsey sister.
Finally stopping by to say hi! / Stacy (Cousin)Read >>
Finally stopping by to say hi! / Stacy (Cousin)
Tomorrow is your birthday and its just so unreal to me still that your not here. Everytime we have a family get together I keep waiting for you to walk in. I wish we could have spent more time together the past year. Thats all I can think about is how close we were and how we never spent much time together toward the end. i miss you so much. You were always like a little brother to me. I dont have anyone one to give "sisterly" advice to and it really sucks. I hope that wherever you are you are happy and safe. If you could stop by and say hi in some way I would be so happy. I think we are going to have a bday party for you this weekend- watch for balloons! We will be sending you our love. Close
Trying so hard to understand your passing and that I can't bring you back / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )Read >>
Trying so hard to understand your passing and that I can't bring you back / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, I've been wanting to write for awhile, just really did not know what to say. I miss you sooooo much and I cry for you everyday. I can't seem to move on from this horrible tradgey.Tomorrow will mark the sixth month of you leaving us. I just pray and hope with all my heart that you are somewhere, wrapped in love and that you can see us and see our pain and our struggle to overcome this.I hope that your friends have learned something thru this. I hope they realize they are not invincable and the same thing can happen to them. I want to try and do something about those roads out there. The one that took your life. They need to put up guard rails and lower the speed limit. I'm not sure where to start, but I am going to try and get something done. I get so angry every time I go out there, because if there had been a guard rail you may have survived. There are still so many unanswered questions about that night, I know we will never get the answers and it saddens me, because I WANT answers. We were going to have a balloon release in honor of your birthday, but you mom can't do it yet. At least not with all your friends. They are to much of a reminder that you are gone, that you should be out skateboarding with them and having fun. She's coming over here and her, Stacy, Kylie and I are going to have a little balloon release of our own. I really have'nt been doing well. I finally had to go to a therapist and get on antidepressents. So far they seem to be helping a little. I can talk about you without crying sometimes now. However, most days I still shed quite a few tears over you. I just love you so much and missing you and it's just such a heavy burden to bear. I'm not emotionally equiped right now to fully handle it. I'm going to miss you this weekend at the dogtown parade. We really had a great time their together, the whole family. Your birthday is going to be a hard one to handle as well. I know we will manage to get thru it but it will be VERY difficult. I love and miss you so much baby!! I'll write again soon. Until then rest peacefully and watch over us and know you are thought of everyday. Give Grandpa Bill a big hug from us all, ok? Love you, Aunt Dee Close
Why God! Why did he have to die. Why God! Why couldn't he say goodbye. Why God! Why did he have to drink and drive. Why God! Why can't he just be alive. Why God! Why he was only 17 still a baby. Why God! Why did you take are best friend from us.
Why God! Why did he have to leave not knowing we were going to greeve and cry for the rest of are lives. Why God! Why he didn't deserve to die. Why God! Why he gave the best hugs in the world. why God! Why he was the greatest person in the world. Why God! Why he had a good,kind,loving,careing hart. Why God! Why has this traggic accident torn us all apart. Why God! Why.
This poem is written to Jordan just some questions i wanted to ask god. Forever rest in peace smiley. We miss you and won't forget you.
Love you and miss you / Susan Held (Aunt)
Memory of Jordan - Just spoke with your Aunt Dee on the phone today - She still can't get through the day without crying - She missing you soooo much - WE all miss you - I wear a angel pin your mother gave out at your funeral - I wear it everyday since then - Your Uncle John missing you - Love you Aunt Susan Close
Missing you more than I can bear! / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, It's been a bad week for me. Actually, everyday is a bad day without you here to hold and love. I can't seem to stop the tears. Tears for you my baby boy. I just can't understand why you had to go. What purpose does that serve? No one wants to talk about it, and I need that. I need to talk about you. It helps to keep you with me. I get so angry when I think about what happend. It's just such a tragedy that could have been prevented. My heart is literally broken. I can actually feel the pain. I feel like I'm losing it. I wish it would have been me. You were to good, and had so much left to offer, so much good left to do. I can't imagine never hugging you again, laughing with you, we had so much fun together. You were my special one. The one who always stood beside me and loved me no matter what. I knew that you would always see to it that I was taken care of. Now I have nothing. I don't have that feeling of unconditional love. That closeness with someone, that no one could take away. Why did'nt I spend more time with you? I can't get over that. I should have been there more that last year. I know you were more interested in hanging with your freinds, skateboarding, etc. And wanting to be with Lindsey. That I understand, as she is such a wonderful girl. Jordan, we Love Lindsey, and willl make sure that she's ok for you. We will watch out for her. OK? I know that she was your first real love, and I am so happy you got to experience that before you had to go. I just love her so much for giving that to you. I think all of us feel guilty/responsible in some one. What if we had done this differently, or been here, or there are so many if's/or that we just can't let go of it. I know you wouldn't want me to be like this, sad, crying all the time, unable to fully function, but I just can't move on completly. I'm just not ready. I'm really trying to do things to honor you, to keep your memory alive, your goodness known to everyone, your loving ways. I don't want anyone to forget that about you. I want to have a plaque made to put at your site. I just feel like I can never do enough. Why doe's no one want to talk about you? It leaves me alone in my grief and sorrow. I hate it. I have no desire to do anything. I just feel so alone. I need help. I need YOU!! I have had one dream about you, and it was not good. I woke up crying. I need to dream good dreams about you, but I can't. Please come to me in my dreams. I need to hear your voice and to see you!! Please! Your Mom is really having a hard time and I don't know how to help her. I can't even help myself. Please help me to find the strength to bear this burden. It's a sorrowful time in our lives, filled with so much pain and anguish. Everyone says I'm not myself. How can I be? I'm just filled up with grief and I can't be myself without you here. Maybe someday that time will come but I don't think it will be any time soon. I just miss you and love you so much. I will forever carry you with me, in my heart and my memories. You will never leave me. I can't wait to see you again. I hope that will happen. I pray for it. I hope you are at peace, surrounded my loved ones, wraped up in their love. You will forever be my Jordy and I won't ever let you go. I love you with every ounce of my being.Forever and Always, Aunt Dee Close
Been having a REALLY difficult time lately / Deborah Ladd (Aung Dee )Read >>
Been having a REALLY difficult time lately / Deborah Ladd (Aung Dee )
Jordan, I don't know why, but the last few days have been extremly difficult. I can't even look at your picture without crying. I have some good days, but mostly bad. It's just unimagineable knowing that you will never be with us again. So many people are hurting terribly without you. If only we could turn back time. I know so many people would have done things differently. I would have spent alot more time with you.Your mom is having a very difficult time, but she's a stong lady. I'm proud of her, the way she is handeling things. I don't know how she does it. It's just unbelievable that we lost you over some senseless tragedy that could have been prevented. We are definetly NOT going to let your death have been in vain. We are trying to raise awareness of safe driving. We are having a balloon release on your birthday and a benefit on or around your angel date. If through losing you we can save one life then the choice you made will teach many to NOT make the same mistake. I believe that your friends now know what to do if the same type of situation raises it's ugly head. I don't want anyone to go through what we have gone through. It is by far the worst thing that has ever happened to our family. JUst know you are so very loved and beyond missed. You will be in all of our hearts forever! We need you to do your best to help us heal, when you are able, we will be waiting. Loving you so much baby. Aunt Dee Close
Just thinking about my "Loved beyond words" Jordan / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )Read >>
Just thinking about my "Loved beyond words" Jordan / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, It's the day after valentine's day and I'm sitting here thinking that this is another holiday you missed. Believe me, you were thought of all day. Jordan, we are having such a difficult time healing from this horrible tragedy. It seems that Lindsay, your Mom and I are having the most difficult time. It's just that we don't know how to live without you in our lives. We just miss you so. How do we go on without you? I hope that you can see us and see our pain and know how very much you are loved. If you can, please know that we are suffering so. If things are supposed to get eaisier, I hope that happens soon, as I can't go on like this much longer. I pray everyday for a release from this pain. I will write again soon and I love you so much. Always know that and know yoy will never be forgotten. Much love always, Aunt Dee. Close
hey i am sitting here thinking bout u and just wanted to pop in and say hi i got some flower seeds to plant up there at your tree and theres this thing that we got ur mom it says if tears could build me a stairway i'd walk rite up to heaven and bring u back down with me well i want to get this solar light that says that for you tree to so this spring after we get that stuff planted were gona have a candle light visual for you so im and please send a message to ur mom and tell her im here if she needs me 636-358-6744gona go now we miss and love ya
Wanted to say Hi and let u know we went / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, I spent the weekend with your mom at Incline. I babysat Grant. Just being out there, it makes me feel your presence more. I got to seelp in your bed, which made me feel close to you. We went to the accident site on sunday. I Hung a cut out heart with a heart that hands in the middle that says "My Anel Always" also I lefet a smal stained glass cross that had "Wisdom, Courouge and Faith" on it. Sorry baby, I'm extremely tired and off to bed. I'll write to you tomorrow. Love Always, Aunt Dee Close
This song is so sad but sweet i miss you football head / Lindsey Woldanski (girlfriend)Read >>
This song is so sad but sweet i miss you football head / Lindsey Woldanski (girlfriend)
hey just sitting here missing u and i think this song really reminds me of u and me..... i miss u also i am really mad b/c i had a skateboard made for grant and i have still not got it yet it makes me mad b/c i ordered it in december but whatever i love you alot and miss you......
One Sweet Day....
oooh listen to me, I won't be afraid I'll be alright if you help me I know your looking down from heaven And I won't let me down I'll be everythin' you taught me And all I know is our way Hate to see you whenever...
Sorry I never told you All I wanted to say And now it’s too late to hold you ‘Cause you’ve flown away, so far away
Never had I imagined living without your smile Feeling and knowing you hear me It keeps me alive, alive
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way And I know eventually we’ll be together (Together) One sweet day (And all that I know and I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)
Darlin’, I never showed you (No, no, no, no, no, no) {I never showed you} Assumed you’d always be there (mariah: always be there,) no,no, {I thought you’d always be there} and I take your presence for granted But I always cared (But I always cared) and I miss the love we shared
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (Lost along the way) And I know eventually we’ll be together (I know, I know) One sweet day (And all thatI know is I'll wait patiently to see you in Heaven)
Although the sun will never shine the same I’ll always look to a brighter day Yeah, yeah Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep You will always listen as I pray
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (Like so many) And I know eventually we’ll be together (Yes, I know, I know we’ll be together) One sweet day
And I know you’re shining down on me from heaven (I’ll see you eventually) Like so many friends we’ve lost along the way (I know you’re lookin’ for a heaven) And I know eventually we’ll be together (Yes, we will) One sweet day (One sweet day, whoa...)
Just a chat / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, I received a copy of a booklet called "It Won't Happen To Me" filled with teens who lost their lives due to car accidents. The majority of these teens were not wearing their seatbelts. You are featured in this magazine, and boy is it hard to look at. Teens just think they are invincable, to young to die. Well, apparently that's not the case. Your mom is having an extremly difficult time. She received your toxicology report along with your coronor's report and won't open either one of them. She's just not ready. You really need to try and give you mom a sign that all is ok and you anre waiting for her in paradise. Grant's apparently been having nightmares, which is unusual for him. Watch over him and Kylie too, and try and help ti guide them down the right path. I just know that I cannot go thru this kind of loss again. They say that if you would of had your seat belt on it would not have helped, but who really knows? I hope you are wraped in the warmth of those who went before you. I miss you baby and cannot find a way to make it easier. Time will help, I'm sure. I'll wri te la ter. Please help us to find some peace. Love Always and Forever. Aunt Dee Close
Having a hard day today. I call those days my Jordan days. / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )Read >>
Having a hard day today. I call those days my Jordan days. / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, I wrote earlier this am, but really had a hard time. Today has been one of those days where I can't seem to get you out of my mind, if only for a second. I have to admit that often I get angry with you for making the choice that you made. To drink and drive. You know you were not the greatest driver anyway. I can't believe you took that chance when you were just talked to by your mom about drinking and driving that very week. Did you think you were invinceable? That nothing could happen to you, you being so young. You left behind so many broken hearts. I do not believe mine will ever hill. There is forever a hole in my heart that was put there the day you left us. I have had a really tough life and managed to survive it all, but this I just cannot move on from. I know it takes time, but you meant everything to me and I am just crushed that my baby boy is gone. I believe your mom and I have been hit the hardest. We do have moments of laughter, but most often just tears and heartbreak and the need to get answers for exactly what happened. Where were you coming from? Why so late? I am certain that we will never have those answers, which is a kller, the not knowing. When you are strong enough could you please come to us, someone in the family, anyone, just so we have hope that we will meet again. I need that. I believe if I have that sign I am so desperatly looking for that things will start getting easier as then I know we will be together someday. When that day comes, I hope it's you that come takes my hand to take me home.Please know that you were and still are so very loved. I don't believe you knew that. Maybe I say that because I think if you knew how much you meant to everyone, you would have thought twice before you made that fatal choice. Well all is done, no bringing you back, as much as we would all like to . But you will ALWAYS be in our hearts and memories and we will think of you everyday. We have so many memories of you to share with others, that helps. Makes us laugh at times and makes us cry at times.I will write to you tommorow, or light a candle. I love you baby, we all do, longing for your presence. Love, Aunt Dee Close
Just missing you so!1 / Deborah Ladd (Aunt Dee )
Jordan, I'm sitting here reading some of the things people wrote about you, about how they are dealing with your passing. NOT one person is ok. Everyone is so hurt and loney and missing you so.I do have problems with your friends letting you drive while you had been drinking. They know who they are and they could have FORCEIBLY taken your keys. A fight whould have been much better than death. I hope they have learned a lesson from this and will never again let a good friend drive after drinking. I'm sure they themselves are filled with guilt. I understand Joey is having a really hard time. Maybe because he really feels like it should have been his responsibilty to take your keys. I hope he doesn't caring that with him. You choose your own destiny that night, when you decided to drive, knowing you were drunk and the kinds of roads you had to drive on. WHY Jordan, WHY did you make that choice? You left behind family and friends who loves you dearly, and now we are all just so heartbroken, sad and it's just hard to live without you here. Our lives will never be the same. We will miss and love you until the day we go and hopefully that will be the day I get to hold you again. I love you so. May your RIP baby. Know you are thought of everyday!!! Close